Trying something new
So, my computer has crapped out on me for a long time and I have no idea when it’s going to be fixed. I did get a new phone this weekend though, so maybe I can get back to this blogging thing via my phone. Woohoo. I actually have quite a lot I want to say.
I really truly believe that I have have been growing by leaps and bounds recently. Some people may not believe this, but I actually have been a little bit of a quiet mouse. I hide what I truly believe in order to keep peace. Frankly, I’m sick of that. I’m not sure why I’ve been so concerned with what other people think of me. you might say that I’ve come to the opinion of love me or hate me. I always have a gut feeling that people are talking about me behind my back anyway. perhaps that’s a bit self centered. let me rephrase it a little… I don’t care whether other people talk about me or not. I hope my true friends will love me for who I am. I am not going to try and fix you. don’t bother trying to fix me. I am on a journey of growth. I am not who I want to be. thank God I am not who I was. my journey is bringing me to a place of throwing judgment of others out the window. doesn’t the bible say after all ” who the Son sets free is free indeed”. let us live freely to grow into who He has designed us to be.
my question is simply, “what do you need?” my desire is simply, to be my brother’s keeper so the whole world will know they are not alone.
so what if the person begging for money at the side of the road is a meth adict. does that mean I don’t help them? does that mean I allow the government to take control of how they are helped? Or does that mean I really take a look at who Jesus is and how I can be Jesus to everyone around me. we are all God’s children. are there some of us He loves less? as I mind my miracles, I begin to recognize that there is nothing I wouldn’t do for them. my love for them knows no bounds. how could I even imagine that the Father would love His children less than I love mine? it is because of Him that I have this love inside of me. it is because of Him that I now to chose to act on this love… no matter how unlovable the child may seem. many claim to be Christians but without love are you really a follower of Christ? we all have someone in our lives that we reject. We all have someone we chose not to love… maybe it’s even ourselves. I believe it’s time to start to love again. not just with our heart, not just with our prayers, but with our words and our actions. it’s time for me to make love visible in my life… it’s time to see the real beauty in life. my children may not always see a pretty, perfect home. they may not wear the latest styles and know everything that society offers, but they will know with all of their being what it really means to love someone else. they will see through my example love manifested… because that is what I see when I look at Jesus.
everyday I will have to start again. some days I may have to start over more than once. I may find different people harder to love. this is a journey and a process.
this is looking for miracles.