In the throws of it
Today, I am feeling a little like I am buried in the grumpies. For some reason my boys decided that they didn’t want to do anything the easy way because of course we had something we needed to get done today that was out of the house. It seemed like we were struggling every moment of our trip from whose sitting on which side of the cart to who can touch the most things going down the aisle. Oh, and let’s not forget how much fun out is to make our voices echo off the ceiling of our favorite warehouse store as mom holds her head down in shame trying to hide her eyes from everyone around all the while hissing threats about the coming consequences. And then there was the screaming -I don’t want to listen to these songs- at the top of your lungs over and over as mom just turned the radio louder on the way home. All followed by -I want you Mommy. We won’t even go into the lunch that followed. All I can say is that hearing your two year old say -NO, I WILL NOT- and then biting me… was more than this mom wanted to experience. Fortunately, I did okay in keeping my temper under wraps (although I could feel it bubbling under the surface the whole time) and the boys are now sleeping the much needed sleep of the weary.
Perhaps its because my Bible reading for today was Jeremiah 4-6 and Isaiah 18 in which God was telling Israel all the things that were going to happen. I clearly remember how it said that a bunch of disaster was going to happen and it sounded like that was the end of everything (as in civilization was being wiped out) and then He said, no there’s more. I mean God had seriously lost His temper and with good reason. His children are the most whiney little brats that ever there were. We are those same children. We think its okay to wake up on the wrong side of the bed and just complain, fight and tell God no all day. All the while expecting Him to meet our every need and not only our needs, but our wants too. We are some selfish spoiled kids and He loves us anyway. In spite of it all. Jesus came and we no longer have to see God lose His temper at us. Sure there are still consequences for what we do, but God is not mad at us in any way for anything. We can be grumpy. We can be irritable. W can lose our tempers and throw fits. We can tell him NO over and over and over again and He will patiently try to explain to us that He loves us so much and only wants the best for us. He will give us chance after chance after chance to get it right. He will meet all of our needs and go above and beyond for us. He holds us through our storms and brings us peace.
Man, I want to parent the way God does. Even when we hurt Him, He doesn’t turn to us in anger. He simply holds us closer. He whispers softly in our ear about His great love for us. On the way to the store we listened to a song about how nothing can separate us from the love God has for us in Christ Jesus. No attitudes, no back talking, no embarrassing behavior will ever separate from that love. We are loved with an everlasting love.
We can choose to live out of that love or to hide out from it. I can choose to parent out of it or parent out of my own weaknesses. I know what brings about better results. I know Who brings about better results. I want to be like Him. I want to parent like Him. Please teach me Lord…gently. Thank you.
Praying you know that you are not alone today. May you find yourself
“Miraculously Blessed” ,